Friday, October 24, 2014

Balls to the Walls

"Balls to the Walls". What does that mean and why do people use that term? Are they using it correctly?

The term initially makes the third grade boy in me giggle inappropriately a little. (Visually that wouldn't make sense). My first time hearing the term, I was working in a city emergency room when one of the ER physician told an EMS dispatcher that we (the ER department) were, "balls to the wall and couldn't accept anymore trauma patients". I couldn't imagine what he meant by that. Now, this was in Montgomery, Alabama and many of our ER physicians were from the country for which we heard many odd antiquated terms and informed about many unusual home remedies for everyday ailments. Needless to say, I was a little dumbfounded on the term, "balls to the wall". There were only two other male staff members that evening, so I assumed there was not a gender meaning, as my inner third grade boy would giggle about. Obviously in context, I felt the physician meant we were too busy or overloaded with work. In a general conversation with my mother, I got a little different reply. Now, if you have ever met my mother you could literally hear her reply. "It means the shit has hit the fan". Tasteful. Later, when I took up a administrative position at a hospital in Atlanta, the term was used again in a meeting. This time, everyone stopped what they were doing, and turned to look at this individual asking if they just said, "balls to the wall". The person put their head down in shame and said yes they had. This started a round of laughter around the room that confused me even more. Here I was shaming myself in Alabama for thinking the balls in balls to the wall meant something related to male genitalia, and now in a professional meeting with colleagues in Atlanta, Georgia, the implied meaning was of a perverse nature. So, this meant that I was on fact finding mission. According to on online site that describes the root of words and terms, the phase came from airplane pilots. The throttle for the fuel had a handle in the shape of a ball and when the pilots needed more speed for take off or to get through a tough area, they would say, put the "ball to the wall", the wall of the front of the cockpit. Well ... that meaning wasn't at all what I was expecting. My take away is to use the phrase when you want to get going and plow through an obstacle, to put the pedal to the metal or burn the midnight oil. (Those terms are for another blog at an other time).

The phrase balls to the wall, meaning an all-out effort, comes from the world of aviation. On an airplane, the handles controlling the throttle and the fuel mixture are often topped with ball-shaped grips, referred to by pilots as (what else?) balls. Pushing the balls forward, close to the front wall of the cockpit increases the amount of fuel going to the engines and results in the highest possible speed.



Thursday, October 2, 2014

ADN to PhD: What am I doing?

Well. Here I am. Almost a year into graduate school as a Masters in Health Education and already thinking about starting the PhD program next Fall. Am I crazy or being wise? I received my Associates in Nursing degree in 1996 and procrastinating bridging that to a Bachelors for 16 years. Now, I have an opportunity to finish my Masters and finish my PhD in one place, in one block of time, and on a tuition waiver for an assistantship. All of this with a research subject and a faculty that I really like. How many people will have this opportunity? Not many, I'm afraid. Yes, money will be tight, but when has it not been. Yes, I will be stressed and vent my fears to unsuspecting bystanders in my life. When have I not? Of course, I will need to beg for forgiveness when I do verbally attack someone, or offer myself as their punching bag if needed. I suspect that offer will be accepted more than I realize. Anyway, I want to go for it. I want to become the expert in my field of interest. Sure, I could do quite a bit with a Bachelors or Masters, but with a Doctorate, I am invited to the table. I will obtain the ability to change policy, to affect the lives of many for the better good. I will hold the card that will bypass the line of credentials along with the key to open doors never thought possible. I want to publish. I want to teach. I want to research. I want to influence how processes are done with people's health. I think some things are done way too half-hazardly because someone thought it was a good idea. Maybe so, but where is the philosophy in that. My goal is a PhD in Health Education to focus on health behaviors around weight maintenance. I am not exactly sure Health Education is the optimal fit, but perhaps some Psychology, Educational Psychology, Bio and Behavioral Statistics, Public Health, Qualitative Research, and Kinesiology courses thrown in will surfice my interest accomplishments.